This weekend I turned 24! And it really got me to think and reflect over the past year. It amazing how incredibly different my life is, what I’ve survived and who I’ve become.
At this point last year I was still on leave from work, still trying to get over my breakup, and feeling like I was doing absolutely nothing with my life. I was shutting everyone that actually cared about me out, and still trying to figure out how to live at home again after being gone for so long. At that point I never thought that I would get things figured out, I didn’t know if I was going to get through everything and if I did what kind of shape I would be in when I got to the other side.
But I did survive, and while I made plenty of mistakes along the way, I became I better person because of it. I finally started rediscovering who I really am. I’m so blessed to have amazing friends who forced me to stop shutting people out. That true friends are there to help you get through tough times like this. I even had true enough friends to not only be there for me, but forgive me for awful decisions and things that I did when I was at rock bottom. I’ve discovering some self confidence and worth. I’ve realized that I deserve it. That settling isn’t even an options. That while some days it may be hard for me to see, I am a beautiful person even at my faults. And as long as I”m working on myself everyday that’s all that really matters. I’ve learned to say what I feel, and to majority of the time say fuck it to having a filter. I absolutely love how freeing that has been for me.
I’ve been back to work for close to a year now, and things are finally starting to get better there. I’m finally getting everything back to where I want it to be. I’ve also decided to create my own destiny and make sure I am doing something in my life instead of feeling that I was going nowhere before. I’m going back to school finally in January and I’m so excited to finally be getting back into it. I’m also super excited for knowing the impact I’m making on my future.
Realizing how much has truly changed I’m vowing to try to blog at least once a week over the next year. Whether it be about person things, weight loss or anything else. This is about documenting the next year for myself so when 25 comes, I’ll have something to look back on and reflect more on.
And this has definitely been one of the best birthdays I’ve had in a long time. I got to spend time with my family, and my friends that really matter to me. And as you get older to learn that, that’s all that really matters. Spending time with the people who mean the most to you!
